Night Shift Episode 8: Pay It Forward
Previously on Night Shift: Saira overacted while telling Robin that she and Jagger kissed; Claire informed high school classmate Ryan that he has four kidneys, and he decides to keep two and sell the other two; “Leo” and Saira came to an understanding about the thing they’re doing; Robert hated the idea of a colostomy, but it turned out to be the only option they had to save his life.
In Robert’s room, Patrick is telling Robert that there is some good news: the cancer was confined to one part of Robert’s colon and all of it was removed, which makes Robert a pretty lucky man. He doesn’t look like he feels too lucky; “numb” is more like it. Patrick and Robin talk about the chemotherapy Robert is going to need, and he expresses skepticism over being pumped full of chemicals that will kill his healthy cells. Robin tells him, forcefully, that “we’re going to fight this. We’re going to beat this. You’re going to be fine.”
Perhaps sensing the need for some levity, Patrick adds, “That is, if you don’t pull a Houdini and hightail it out of here”. Robin threatens to handcuff Robert to the bed if she has to, and he scoffs at her, as if to say “Handcuffs? That’s the best you can do? I’m a mothereffing superspy” and laughs, which leads to a coughing fit. Patrick asks if he’s all right, and Robert tells him that he’s fine.
In Ryan The Hot Patient’s room, Claire is shocked that the eBay posting for his kidneys has attracted so much attention: it’s been online for three days, and they already have a high bid of $50,000. Kyle, ever the model student, is observing this and tells Claire that she could get in massive amounts of trouble for this. She isn’t concerned about that, and tells him that they can do a lot of good with the money they raise. Kyle counters that she’ll need to use that money to finance her unemployment, since she’s breaking all sorts of hospital policies. Claire and Ryan think this isn’t a big deal, since they’re not keeping the money, they’re giving it away.
Ryan tries to get Kyle to jump on board, asking if Kyle wants to help the whales. Kyle is dismissive of aiding mammals with blow holes and points out that such tricks don’t work on him: it’s not like he’s Claire or anything. Hee! Even funnier is the fact that Claire doesn’t even react.
Anyway, Ryan keeps trying to appeal to Kyle, saying that they can change the world, and Kyle can pick his cause, using the money to plant trees (only if they can get Marky Mark to take time out of his busy pants dropping schedule to help, I say) or work for marriage equality. The money is burning a hole in his pocket--or, as Claire points out in a line reading so creepily similar to Katherine Heigl that I wonder if Sri Rao and the producers had Carrie Southworth watch episodes of Grey’s Anatomy, in his back--and he has a hankering for some do-gooding, especially since $50,000 is the going rate for just one kidney and he has a whole other one to spare. Kyle points out that just because Ryan has extra kidneys doesn’t mean he needs to auction them off. Claire informs him that in just three days, there are already 100 bids. “Isn’t that beautiful?!” Kyle leaves, and Claire chases after him, trying to explain her rationale, and Kyle interrupts to talk about Ryan and not Ryan’s kidneys; he points out that Ryan is completely into Claire. She admits that he is super cute. They giggle.
“Leo” and Saira walk into the hospital with matching moony looks on their faces, talking dreamily about how it’s been 65 hours since they officially entered coupledom. “Leo” says it’s the longest date of his life, which Saira is unsurprised about, since “It gets pretty expensive when you’re paying by the hour”. …burn? “Leo” offers to meet her in the supply closet for a hookup, which is nixed for being too predictable, and suggests the MRI room as a possible liaison spot.
Saira: Just because I am your…whatever now doesn’t mean things are going to change here.
“Leo”: You’re my whatever?
Saira: I’m certainly not your girlfriend.
And, with a slap on his ass, she exits.
Patrick walks over to the nurse’s station and asks Epiphany when this shift is over, and she tells him it’s not for another 75 hours, which depressed me so much that I nearly went into the fetal position. But, she notes as she sees three men in suits, led by the dashing looking Jagger
Epiphany: things are starting to look up. Hello, there, Jagger.
Jagger is super serious and—okay, I can’t be diplomatic. What in the name of god and all things holy happened to Antonio Sabato Jr. in this episode? He’s never been a David Canary or Peter Bergman caliber actor. Hell, he’s never been an Audrina Patridge level actor. But he’s usually not as awful as he was in this episode! What happened? Is it because he had a handful of multisyllabic words to say? After the episode, Becca emailed me and said:
Antonio Sabato Jr. gave perhaps the worst performance I've ever seen on a soap. This includes 20 years of Days of Our Lives, and several seasons of One Tree Hill. It was like he was thinking of his lines, translating them into another language, then translating them back into English but sounding out every syllable phonetically.
(She also lamented over the episode’s tragic lack of shirtlessness.)
It’s true, though. It’s like he was an alien who had no concept of verbal communication and learned how to speak by watching Steven Segal movies. I am going to try my best to convey how fucked up his acting was in this episode, but mere words don’t do it justice. I felt kind of like I was watching history in the making, like one day people will ask “Where were you when Antonio Sabato Jr. mangled the English language, sentence inflection and basic facial expressions?” My future children will be totally excited to hear that I saw it as it happened!
Anyway, Jagger grimly greets Epiphany.
Patrick: Well, look who’s here. You dressed up for me!
Jagger: I need to ASK a few QUEStions. (Long pause) on behalf of the FBI.
Patrick: Okay. About what?
Jagger: GeneRAL HOSpital’s involvement in HuMAN (Long pause) ORGan (Long pause) trafficking.
Patrick and Epiphany exchange an “Oh, shit” look.
In Patrick’s Chief of Staff (Hee! That will never not be funny), Jagger and his FBI co-agents are meeting with Patrick, “Leo”, Epiphany and Claire.
Jagger: HUMan ORGan traffickINg is a MajOR interNATtional CRIMinal operation.
Claire swears up and down that there is no organ trafficking going on, but Patrick hotly (literally and figuratively) tells her that she’s gotten the hospital in enough hot water and to can it. Jagger tells them that the FBI was able to shut down the organ auction but that standards on organ trafficking are very severe. “Leo” says that he had nothing to do with this and knows nothing about it, so he’s going to leave, but Patrick angrily says that as a resident, he’s supposed to know what his interns are doing, especially if they are selling human organs. He then tells Epiphany that she’s supposed to be his eyes and ears, and how did this pass by her attention? She apologizes. He asks Jagger what this all means for General Hospital.
Jagger: GENeral (Long Pause) HOSpital might LOSE its PRIVliges to perform (Long Pause) Organ transplants.
Christopher Walken speaks in a less tortured syntax than this man.
In Robert’s room, a nurse is setting up his IV, telling him that the drugs go into his system intravenously. He darkly says that she means poison, not drugs. Billy Dee Williams appears out of nowhere and chuckles in that creepy way that he does where he says “Ha ha. Ha ha ha. Ha” instead of actually laughing, and tells Robert to give the nurse a break. Robert sneers that doctors lie, and Billy Dee gets mock defensive of his new field. Robert tells him he should have stayed a rockstar. He asks how Billy Dee is doing, and Billy Dee admits that he has a lot on his plate right now. He asks the same of Robert, and seems to genuinely care, and tells Robert that if he wants anything, to ask.
Robert: Can you cure old? I don’t like it.
Billy Dee: (Laughs) We are old school, but we’re still singing.
Robert: No man should have to go through this. You know, I crap in a bag. They push and prod me 24 hours a day. I was cut up and gutted like a fish.
Billy Dee: Life deals you changes. You just gotta find a way to roll with it.
Robert: It’s so humiliating.
Back in Patrick’s office, Claire is pleading with them to believe that she never meant to get GH in trouble. A knock at the door interrupts her, and Ryan walks in, trying to get the heat off of Claire, admitting that he’s the one they should be talking to, especially since Claire tried to stop him, so he’s the one who should be facing repercussions. Patrick snaps that this is official hospital business, and tells him to go back to his room; as he leaves, he and Claire exchange a smile. Patrick turns back to Jagger and asks if there is any way the FBI could drop this—he’ll deal with Claire and he’ll put his reputation on the line, but it can’t affect GH. “Leo”, Epiphany and Claire file out, and Claire turns to say something to Patrick, but he curtly tells her that she’s dismissed.
Jagger: LOOK, I WILL try to BUry this but Organs Watch is not going to LET it FLY. They’re (Long Pause) going to want to KNOW that the F (Long Pause) BI did their job and you HERE at GH did (Long Pause) yours.
Patrick: That’s fine, whatever you need from me—
Jagger: I am Going to have to monitor you for a few days.
Patrick: (Dumbstruck) …what?
Jagger: (All too familiar with not knowing what words mean) I am going to need to follow you around and make sure you are doing your job.
Patrick: That’s great. That’s wonderful.
Jagger: Hey, it won’t be so bad. You might enjoy the company.
Patrick smiles broadly at Jagger, and turns around and pouts hilariously.
In Ryan’s room, Claire is eating pie out of the pan, a fact that makes Kyle both curious and hungry. She tells Ryan and Kyle that she’ll need to present at the GH Organs Watch meeting and explain the standards to hospital staff. Kyle interrupts to ask where she got the pie. His fixation with the pie is reminding me of Keenyah on America’s Next Top Model when she became obsessed with food and couldn’t take her eyes off of Kahlen’s pastry during a conversation. Ryan tries to perk Claire up by saying that this could be fun, because she will be educating her peers, but she hates public speaking. She asides to Kyle that she stole the pie from the cafeteria, and he is horrified that she is continuing to break laws while the FBI is still in the building. Ryan suggests that she do a cheer like she did in high school (Kyle helpfully offers to let her borrow his pom poms) but she says this is serious, and probably the least of her worries, since “Leo” and Epiphany haven’t gotten to punish her in their own sadistic ways. Ryan takes a different route, saying that she gets to fight the establishment and stand up for what she believes in, which gets him an offer of a psych evaluation from Claire. Kyle sighs that they should have expected this since, again, they were attempting to sell human organs, but Ryan has a lightbulb go off over his head and says that selling organs may be sketchy and punishable by jail time, but giving them away could be okay, especially if they were given away for a good cause. Kyle hits us with the episode title and says “You mean like
the worst move ever created and how it got greenlit is still a mystery because a movie with Kevin Spacey, Helen Hunt and Haley Joel Osment doesn't seem like entertainment as much as it does a crime against humanity Pay it Forward?” He and Claire are thoughtful.
Patrick and Jagger exit the elevator and Jagger amiably tells Patrick that he’ll be back in the morning to start officially shadowing Patrick and get a sense for what Patrick does. Patrick is already defensive and assumes that Jagger will tell him that he sucks as a Chief of Staff, and also at life, but Jagger says that it won’t be bad. Robin greets her “two favorite men” and Patrick musters up all his faux politeness and says “Your friend is going to be monitoring me. Isn’t that fun?” Jagger recaps the situation and Patrick adds, “Kind of like ‘Bring Your FBI Agent to Work Day’”. I want one of those days!
Robin: I don’t think hanging out with Jagger is necessarily punishment.
Right on, Robin. As long as he doesn’t talk, that is.
Jagger makes his exit, after asking Robin
Jagger: Would YOU let ME know (Long Pause) when IS a good Time to VISit your (Long Pause) father?
Patrick is peeved, but Robin tries to calm him down, saying that Jagger will smooth it all over. Patrick asks about Robert, and Robin is all “Oh, right, can you go visit him?” She’s up to her ears in reading about colon cancer, and he asks her to go over to him and gives her a big hug.
Robin: Why does everyone keep hugging me?
Patrick: You’re getting hugs behind my back?!
He reminds her that they have a great staff of oncologists, and he says Robert will be all right.
In the locker room, Kyle is coming around on Ryan’s Kidney Scheme and says that as long as money doesn’t change hands, things should be all right, and he points out that Oprah says we should always find more ways to give. Claire raises an eyebrow and says she thinks Kyle is falling for Ryan, too. He smiles and gives her props for choosing a good guy this time and that the fact that Ryan saw Claire gorging herself on pie without running in horror says a lot about him. Claire swoons that he should have seen the way Ryan defended her in front of the FBI. Kyle is shocked that he sees Claire smiling a “for real” smile, and says she must really like Ryan. She confirms that she does.
Patrick is giving Jagger the list of patients currently on the transplant registry and this leads to an exchange that I am still giggling about:
Jagger: Do you smell that?
Jagger: It smells like flowers or something.
Patrick: What? It’s (Fumbles and Points towards the window)—
Jagger: I think it’s your cologne.
Patrick: (In a loud, bravado filled voice) I’m not wearing cologne.
Jagger: Yes, you are.
Patrick: Okay, fine, I’m wearing cologne. But it doesn’t smell like flowers.
Jagger: …it smells like jasmine.
Patrick: Okay, you know what, Jagger? This whole following thing around business does not include smelling me.
Jagger: It’s fine. I kinda like it. It’s not bad.
Patrick: Oh. (Proudly) Thanks. I think I put on Robin’s.
Hilarious. Patrick’s nervousness and outrage, compared to Jagger’s…I think it’s supposed to be “mildness” but it’s kind of “poorly articulated blankness”. It’s funny, at any rate. Intentionally so, even!
“Leo” and Saira are happily chatting as they walk into Robin, who is dumbstuck that Leo is in a relationship. He goofily says that he doesn’t know who Saira is, and they smile dopily at each other. Robin adds that she’s surprised that Saira is dating someone so different than her usual type (in Saira’s own words, that type is “sweet, smart and well mannered) and they giggle. Robin then seriously tells “Leo” that Saira is a catch, and that he better not screw it up. Robin and Saira leave together, and “Leo” gets a very serious look on his face. I’m instantly reminded of the season finale of Gossip Girl where Chuck’s dad compliments him on settling down with Blair and then Chuck sets his whole life on fire. The only question now is when in this episode will “Leo” set his life on fire.
Kyle and Claire are in the hallway, waiting for Patrick to approach them and Kyle gives her the time honored advice: “What Would Oprah Do?” Patrick sneers at them as they walk up to him and suggests that he get rid of one of the interns in the program if they don’t have enough work today, and Kyle runs as far away as his legs will carry him. Claire babbles about how much she values Patrick’s hard work and may have a way to fix everything. Patrick’s not interested and says he’s had enough of their schemes and doesn’t want to hear any more about kidneys.
It’s unfortunate, then, that they walk into Ryan, with a large group of people, welcoming them to “The Pay It Forward Kidney Competition”. He ends his introduction with a painful “Woooo!”
Billy Dee is pouring coffee in the break room. Epiphany walks in and groans at the sight of him, muttering that she’ll come back for her break later. Billy Dee tells her that the hospital is too small for them to be able to avoid each other and besides, there isn’t anyone in the break room to spot them together. Epiphany wearily asks him not to start that again and then the douchebaggery starts:
Billy Dee: All this time, I thought you’d be jumping out of your skin to go out with me.
Pip looks like she’s about to breathe fire and hits him with some knowledge.
Epiphany: You’re not doing me any favors by asking me out. I was doing fine on my own, thank you very much.
Billy Dee: (Douchily raising his eyebrows) Sorry I asked.
Epiphany: You know, I am starting to be, too. This is exactly the reason why I didn’t want to tell anyone about my personal business. This is my career. I’ve worked too long, and too hard to risk it on some silly romance drama.
Billy Dee: And I’m too old to waste my time on someone who is going to lie about me.
He then starts to channel Jim Carrey in The Mask as he adds, “Or call me silly”.
Pip looks as confused by that as I feel.
Claire is trying valiantly to spin the Pay It Forward fiasco to Patrick as good PR for the hospital, and Jagger points out that it’s not actually illegal:
Jagger: UNorTHOdOX, SURE, But not NECESSARILY (Long Pause) ILLegal.
Patrick is sold on this plan when he realizes that it will get Jagger out of his personal space sooner than anticipated.
In Robert’s bathroom, he silently stares at his reflection in the mirror. Slowly, he drags his IV with him back to the bed and collapses. It was kind of a haunting scene. Zero dialogue, and Tristan Rogers hits it out of the park.
Back in Ryan’s room, he and Claire are, um, interviewing people for his kidney. This particular man is trying to get a kidney for his music teacher who he hasn’t seen in twenty years, because after the man got clean, music was all he had. He’d set up a music program at his old school in honor of his music teacher.
Robert is on the floor of his room, and Patrick walks in to visit him (calling him “Mr. Scorpio”, hee!) and rushes over to help him up and into bed. He wants to take his blood pressure, but Robert asks him not to fuss over him. He tells Patrick he had just been trying to brush his teeth when he fell. Patrick, trying to be helpful, says that the hospital has people to help with this, but Robert explains that nobody wants to have someone brush their teeth for them. He tries to convince himself, too, as he tells Patrick “I’m okay”. Patrick looks hotly concerned.
Jagger and Saira run into each other and awkwardly talk about how they kissed. She mentions that she’s in a relationship type thing, and he…doesn’t actually seem to react, but I think that’s an ASJ thing. He tells her that the most important thing is that she remains in Stone’s life.
Izzy Claire sits on Denny's Ryan’s bed, and wonders how they can make the choice of who gets his extra kidneys. Ryan, very zen, tells her that they’ll know. He grabs her foot and tells her that she has cute feet. She giggles and says that he has cute…everything. True, Claire. She’s rocking the side ponytail in this scene, by the way. Represent, Claire! He asks her what it’s like to be a doctor, and she doesn’t know, because she doesn’t consider herself a doctor. Unlike Kyle, who knew as a zygote that this is what he wanted to do, she’s not sure she even wants to be a doctor, or what she wants to do with her life, and she’s just trying to hold it together. Aww, she sounds like everyone I know who’s in the midst of a Quarter Life Crisis. He cheers her up by telling her his favorite high school memory of her: it was 10th grade, and he saw her in the hallway wearing a pink mock turtleneck (she interrupts to echo my thoughts and says “Oh, dear lord”) and he didn’t want to say anything to her, or even look at her, because she was Claire Simpson, but when she approached him, she said hi and looked at him, and really saw him, even though she didn’t know him. He strokes her face, and they kiss.
(Um, he’s totally going to die, isn’t he?)
Robin is at a computer, typing furiously and looking at the screen intently. Patrick walks over and gives her the news that Robert fell. She looks up for a second and asks if he’s okay, and Patrick confirms that he didn’t break any bones. He asks when she last visited Robert, and she testily informs him that she’s been working nonstop, doing research and calling specialists. Basically, trying to save her father’s life.
Robin: I’m trying to be a doctor. Something you used to be before you became a bureaucrat.
Patrick: Okay, well, as a doctor, your dad’s not doing very well. I think you should go see him. He could die.
Robin: ::Can’t believe he just said that::
Patrick: ::Can’t believe he just said that::
Robin: Don’t worry about how I’m wasting my time, Chief. I won’t bill you for the overtime.
“Leo” jovially runs into his man crush, Jagger, and jokingly thanks him for not throwing him in jail. Jagger tells him about this soccer league he found that plays every Saturday and wonders if “Leo” wants in. “Leo”, always up for quality time with Jagger, readily agrees but realizes that every Saturday won’t work for him, since he has, um, a whatever now. He tells Jagger that he’ll need to check with Saira, and Jagger says that they must be getting serious. “Leo” expresses some doubt about how fast things are moving, and doesn’t know if he’s “That Guy”. Jagger says that nobody is “That Guy”, but says “Leo” should figure things out because Saira “is a hell of a kisser”. Okay, who says that to someone’s boyfriend?
Jagger runs off to catch the elevator, calling out to Patrick to hold the elevator, but Patrick says, “Oh, I can’t find the button”. Ha! Jagger makes it onto the elevator and tells Patrick that he finished his evaluation. Patrick does that thing that television characters do when they assume that a conversation will go one way and start to rant and rave about how “You don’t know me! I don’t want your life!” and it turns out that the conversation was going to go in a totally different direction. Oops! At any rate, Jagger tells him that he’s doing a great job as Chief of Staff, but that he earns some demerits for the lameness of the elevator prank.
Claire is helping Ryan put on his hospital gown, and he gets her to admit that he looks hot. She wonders if they made the right choice about who is getting the kidneys, and he thinks so. She says that the guy with the music teacher may name the music program after Ryan, but he’s holding out hope that the people with the housing development will name it after him, since he’d love to see his name on a building.
Claire: To match the size of your ego?
Ryan: The size of my something.
Epiphany comes in with a wheelchair, ready to bring him to surgery. Ryan asks her what it would take to get a date with Claire, and, not caring one iota, she tells him he should try asking her. Ryan says he can’t, on account of how cool she is, but wonders if Epiphany can at least find out of Claire likes him. Claire tells him that she’ll leave a note in his locker with her answer. As they leave, she smiles to herself because she loves him and wants to have a million of his babies.
(He’s TOTALLY going to die, isn’t he?)
In Robert’s room, Saira is telling him that they’re increasing the dosage with each infusion. He dismissively says the dosage is of orange juice, and she corrects him that it’s Vitamin C, but he doesn’t care. He knows that Robin put her up to this and thinks it’s kind of bullshit. She says he should think of it as an experiment, which is something that I would never want to hear. “You’re kind of a guinea pig, actually! Hee!”, and she follows up by telling him, in a sing-song voice, to give it a chance, as though she’s talking to a toddler. Kyle comes in and greets “Agent Scorpio”, who groans and says he doesn’t want to deal with Kyle and being poked and prodded. Kyle says Robin asked him to get some blood samples, but Robert says “Not tonight”. They struggle for a minute, and Robert yells louder “I’ve had enough”. He knocks over the implements and tries to run as shouts, “I said I’ve had enough. I’ had enough. No more.” Saira calls for help as she and Kyle try to restrain him.
He’s still screaming when Robin and Billy Dee run in. She looks terrified as Billy Dee runs to calm Robert down, telling Robert to hit him if he wants a fight. Poor Robin!
Claire is eating potato chips when Patrick and Epiphany approach her somberly. Pip starts to speak, but can only manage “Um”. Patrick jumps in and very gently tells her that there were complications with Ryan’s surgery. They did everything they could, but he didn’t make it. Aww. RIP Hot Guy with 4 kidneys. Sad face.
In the hallway, Robin is babbling at Billy Dee, finally opening up after spending the rest of the episode immersing herself in books and research. She’s terrified that she doesn’t know how to help him. Billy Dee hopes she doesn’t think an orderly is giving her advice, but tells her that what Robert needs right now is his dignity. He doesn’t need a doctor: he needs his daughter. Robin mulls this over.
Claire looks shell shocked as she sits with Epiphany, who quite kindly asks if she wants any water. Patrick leads Kyle over, who grabs his friend into a big hug and she cries in his arms.
Pip and Billy Dee run into each other, and she apologizes for the lying and the hiding their relationship. He’s sorry, too. She says she should know what’s important in life, but that Claire’s patient died and all she can think about is Stan. Billy Dee agrees with her that life is too short and too precious, and points out that Robert is fighting for his life while they bicker like kids. Pip tells him that she’s blessed to have him in her life, which…I don’t know, after the staggering displays of dickitude this season, I’m not so sure about that, but who am I to argue? Billy Dee says that they have no business not taking advantage of life. They embrace. I still think she can do better!
In Robert’s room, Robin is next to his bed, and she sighs heavily. He asks what she’s doing
Robin: Thinking. About all the times that you rescued me from every bad guy that came to Port Charles.
Robert: (Smiling matter of factly) You’re my little girl. I had to.
She tries to casually suggest that Robert come live with her, an idea that makes him burst out laughing. She points out that it would do him good to get away from the machines and adds, heartbreakingly,
“You’ve rescued me plenty of times. Here I am, all grown up, a doctor, even. But even with (her voice breaks) all the search in the world, I may not be able to cure you, but I can love you”
When he realizes how much she means this, he agrees to come live with her, although he worries that it might kill him before the cancer does. Hee! They laugh, and Robin kisses her father’s hand.
Man, the two of them have always been, continue to be, and will always be so good together.
Claire is looking at Ryan’s body. Kyle asks her if she’s okay, and if she needs anything. She asks to be left alone. She strokes Ryan’s face, and kisses her fngers, then putting her fingers up to Ryan’s lips before she walks out of the room to find Patrick and Kyle in the hallway outside. Patrick walks back into the room where Ryan’s body is, and Claire looks completely shellshocked. Kyle asks again if she needs anything, and she asks him to call Ryan’s parents, since she can’t do it. From the hallway, she looks into the room as Patrick covers the body, and sighs, as she leans her head against the wall. After a moment, she walks away…
…and walks right into Jakes, where she orders shots of vodka. “Leo” is sitting at the other end of the bar, and is surprised that “Blondie” is ordering such strong drinks, especially “Without [her] gay husband to drive [her] home”. Charming! I do have to admit, in the interest of full disclosure, that even though “Leo” is back to his arrogant, asshole ways in this scene, Ethan Rains looks scorchingly hot, which I’ve never really thought before.
He sits next to her and asks why she’s drinking hard liquor, and she tells him that she lost a patient. He, seemingly genuinely, apologizes and says that it’s the hardest part of their job, and that he can’t tell her it gets any easier. She suggests that they toast the fact that she is horrible at her job, which he awkwardly does before telling her that she’s being too hard on herself. He tries to tell her that he remembers losing his first patient, and she angrily says that this wasn’t just a patient. He says that he may be a rude, horrible, immature egomaniac (he may not have said it that way, but it’s what he meant) but she’s not a half bad doctor.
She asks if he’s for real, and he tells her not to tell anyone he said that, as he rubs her back…and strokes her cheek…and, after a long, tension filled pause, they totally make out.